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Day 12 – Stepping Outside My Comfort Zone

Day 12 – Stepping Outside My Comfort Zone
Day 12 – Stepping Outside My Comfort Zone

Today’s topic is about stepping outside my comfort zone. I have the opportunity this year to be a speaker host for our yearly Fellowship conference. The conference lasts for 3 days, with speakers from around the country. We have workshops on the Steps or Traditions, the speakers share their stories, we have a dance, and a comedian or another form of entertainment. It’s a weekend filled with fellowship, food, and fun.

And, my favorite part, a sobriety countdown. How that works is, we start at a few days sober to 40+ years sober, and when your year is called, you stand up. It’s a fun way to recognize everyone who has stayed sober, and it shows the newcomer that long-term sobriety is possible.

These past few years I’ve only been a participant. I would help here and there when I could. Listening to the speakers and getting to know them. But this year I decided to go bigger and volunteer to host a speaker.

What that means is, I call the person that is invited to come to our conference, find out their travel plans, set up a time to pick them up from the airport, and drive them around while they are here.

You may be asking, what’s the big deal? Well first, I get nervous when it comes to phone calls. I don’t talk on the phone unless I have to. It’s an anxiety thing. I have to work myself up, and talk myself into making a phone call. Otherwise, I just text people. Thankfully my sponsor does texting. I don’t think I would talk to him nearly as much as I do if he didn’t do texting.

Second, I get nervous when it comes to driving any distance outside my city. When I go on long trips, I have anxiety. So, this is a big deal because the airport where my speaker will be flying into is an hour away from me, in a city that’s bigger than mine, that I’m not used to driving in.

This whole deal will be big for me. I’m getting nervous already. When my friend text me the information for my speaker this morning, and said I should call to introduce myself, it hit me. This is for real. I’m really doing this. And then the “holy shit, holy shit, holy shit” mantra started going through my head. It hit me that I will be facing a lot of fears, facing insecurity, and facing my anxiety about talking on the phone.

But, this is something I want to do. I knew what I was getting into when I signed up, and I did it because I want to grow. The only way I can grow is to push myself outside of my boundaries. The only way I can grow is to face my fears, go through some pain, and trust my Higher Power to lead me.

Pushing myself outside my boundaries is scary, but if I don’t try to go too big, I know I will be okay. I am excited for this opportunity, and grateful that I am feeling uncomfortable, because I know I am growing. I strive to always be growing today.

Originally published January 18, 2017 – medium.com

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